a quarter of the day already behind me, but i am still dragging on yesterday, and yesterday's yesterday. and so on. it seems that despite my distaste to such, i am still living in the past, and not for today, or even the future. each passing day has a certain history overshadowing it. a history i would prefer not to disavow, but one that i would like to chalk up to "growing up," and move on. (a chapter, so to speak. a long, and disappointing chapter.) however, the days are moving along, and the "next chapter" is not starting. instead, it's a continuation of the same comedy of faults... or perhaps a life lesson for those to follow. leaving me with nothing more than a chance to give hope to those that are watching/reading/listening.

hahhahaaahahaa... hope from one who has given up on even the idea of "hope." good luck with that.

well would you look at that....

sometimes i amaze myself when certain things seem to take control of my bodily operations, be they external chemicals, or ones produced in my own body. things happen, and mentally, i laugh, because i am my own human experiment. "how does _____ affect a person?" or " _____" (fill in the blanks with whatever thing i find amusing that day/week/month/year)

i've more recently been amused by the affects of ALCOHOL on the human system, even boiling down to TYPES, such as vodka, whiskey, rum, even beer... it's just amusing to see the effects of said substances, while watching it first hand, regardless of the outcome.

however, this also stems from an even larger scale experiment as to how certain social interactions (or lack therof) affect "normal" individuals. i'm not going to claim that i'm the MOST normal person on this wreck of an experiment on this ridiculous globe, but i'd say i'm a pretty fair median, given the individuals that i've encountered in my time here.

anyway, this blog is for my drunken ramblings - as if i didn't have a million other places to type it. i'm sure maybe a few people will look at this, most of which i either won't know, or don't care to know are viewing it, but hey, the internet shows people all sorts of amazing things. maybe this will be insight for some crazy stalker, or maybe for a psychiatrist trying to determine why i did ________________________________ (insert WHATEVER i may have done, or will do)

i don't have anything more to say at this time.